pizza

j. and i decided to have pizza for dinner tonite. we bought an amy's roasted vegetable pizza at the store the other day, which doesn't have cheese but has yummy looking veggies on the box. i also bought some 'follow your heart' mozzarella that i shredded on top. now, the cheese didn't melt, however it did get brown, which looks nice enough i suppose. j. took one bite and spit it out immediately. i laughed and he tried another bite, swallowing this one, but hesitantly. anyway, we ended up ordering a veggie lovers pizza from pizza hut with extra sauce and no cheese, thin crust. it was so good!

i feel a little guilty about having pizza for dinner since i talked myself out of going to the gym tonite. i'm having a hard time finding balance in my life right now. i hate having p. in daycare for 9 hours and when we get home in the evening, all i want to do is play with him and cuddle. unfortunately, that cuts into my gym time - i haven't been in almost a week, and last week i only went once (on my day off!). i've decided that i would like to run the 1/2 marathon in january and should really start training for it now since i'm starting at below zero (i haven't done any substantial running since i got pregnant, last august!). however, i can't seem to go and get off my ass to get to the gym. between being tired and wanting to hang out with p. and j., i don't know when i'll go. i'm going to try and get up at 3:30 so that i can be at the gym by 4:30 and hopefully get some running in. i've copied some training programs to help me get ready, one says i can be ready for a full marathon in 18 weeks, the other in 30. hopefully i'll be able to be ready for the 1/2 in 25 weeks, cuz that's all the time i've got. i hesitate to even talk about this in case i end up never going to the gym (which is always a possibility), but maybe announcing my goal to the world (or just to j. since he's the one who reads this) will help me to stay with it. anyway, this week i wanted to run 4x - 1.5 miles, then 3 miles, then 1.5 miles and then 3 more miles. if i start tomorrow morning, i'll have to run wed, thurs, fri, and sat - 4 in a row instead of 2 and 2. i'm ok with that, i just need to get out of bed!

fingers crossed!